recently, i have been more sick frequently. it's a worrisome sign but well, what can i do much abt besides changing my habits and pray? *shrug*
been dreaming a lot in colour lately. sigh. decided to let go of the matter. realized it's not gonna make a difference whether i pursue or not cos... ultimately the friendship is already different. so why seek reassurance? to make it less 'distant'? i'm sorry but i think it went through a pretty irreversible change. i know it's pride speaking... yeah who knows, perhaps 10 years down the road, we can mention this and laugh. but well that's 10 years later...
sometimes i wonder... whether am i in love with the idea of being in love? i can be a good analyst for others... but... i hate my analysis of myself. yeah. i hate myself for loving u! dunno who reads this blog nowadaes so... well... hope someone recognizes the song. :P
well... guess i am just feeling emo. *shrug* sigh i miss ZM and E.
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