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| Monday, November 08, 2004 |
| Clearing cobwebs... |
Hey peeps!
Sorry that I have not posted for so long... Was busy with so many stuff... two 21st birthday parties by my best friends, my grandma in hospital still, me working more hours, tuitioning more hours cos it will end by end Oct, then rushing my assignments, essays, projects, presentations, etc... the list can sorta go on and on...
Read in a book... that memories are for sharing... otherwise it's like cobwebs in the brain. so now I am clearing cobwebs.
Well, been feeling lots since October... and thinking about my role as a leader and my relationships with my sisters... Irene did highlight to me about me not playing my part... and about my pride... and that I don't change as readily as I should... And u know what? I think I knew all these?! but I just dun wanna change in it. Cos it seems to mean to change the very essence of 'Victoria'. But well, what is the essence of 'Victoria'? If the essence isn't Christ-like, shouldn't I change? Isn't having Jesus in my life supposed to change me into a more "Christ-like" person? Yeah. The answer is YES. Of cos I din get these answers so fast lah... But I think I am more aware of what I want to change in and what are the steps I'm going to take. It's great to pray about it to God... I really need to learn to humble myself before God and let Him change me...
Aniwaes... now what's bothering me and making me slightly emo is abt forgiveness. Can a couple be still friends when the parting had left a deep wound? When events had transpired and worsened the wound? There's a scab over it for quite some time... But it seems to still hurt. Logic tells me that I can continue to be his friend since he's so sincere in apologizing. However, my heart knows that I'm going to struggle big time. ah well...
Inspired lots by my best frens' birthdae parties... that is... NOT TO INVITE FAMILY AND FRENS TOGETHER!! It's too overwhelming... for the birthdae gal tat is. I enjoyed Joanna's pink party and Jen's stars night. It was so fun... and could take our mind off the unpleasantries of the world.
Falling asleep at the table... gonna end here. will try to continue next time...
Love, Victoria
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