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| Monday, December 26, 2005 |
| A Time to Reflect... |
wanted to actually use the time todae to upload the photos then organise my memories about the Ipoh trip. then realised that the disc is with Martin and I forgot to get it from him on Saturdae or Sundae... bleahz.
yesterdae was a very interesting dae... it was Christmas and went down for Sundae service... spent the night eefore and the morning writing out cards and inhaling toxic fumes. had to wracked my brain on how to write some cards for the brothers and sisters. had already spent so many nights (about 3) trying to finish the cards i want to write. bleahz. too ambitious? too attention-seeking? too-christmasy spirited? i dunno. sorry to those i din manage to get the card out to. they are still at home... :P i also enjoyed running around giving ppl their presents and cards. haha had to wait for Jennie to arrive before I could start cos she was late. well after giving out everything and then wishing everyone merry christmas then rushed downstairs to meet my group to go down to airport for lunch. then we chatted along the way, opening our presents and reading our cards... then we had lunch at the airport and i made my way home soon after that. cos i needed to be home to prepare my family's christmas dinner. it was quite easy to prepare it as minimal cooking was needed and had a good time laughing over jokes my brother made and just listening to my sister and brother banter. i as quite quiet... and it was only after everything ended i realised why... deep inside my heart, i seem to feel detached from all this christmas thingie... and i think i know it and that's why i keep trying to surround myself with people and busy myself with activities. but somehow there's a part of me that's feeling a bit detached. then i came to realise why... becos i think i knew that i am missing part of what christmas meant. christmas actually meant the birthdae of Jesus (yes u can argue whether Jesus was realli born on 25th December or not... to me that's just a technical problem.). I forgot to celebrate Jesus's birthdae... I forgot to prepare a party for Him! I was so caught up in the other aspects of Christmas that I forgot the most important part... and the play on Sundae reminded me and I guessed that's why I realised I was feeling abit detached... and after that got a sms from Vanessa telling us to think about our resolutions... then i was like yeah... think i realli need to sit down and reflect and spend some good quality time with God... and not just routine spend time but a good time...
430pm - woke up feeling fired up... had a good quiet time with God, discussing with Him about my New Year Resolutions and stuff... but then after that I felt bored... maybe becos i din wanna play Maple Story, Gunbound or watever games. no book interested me though the book Huiling gave me is a book I wanted to read quite some time liao. then was planning to go join clara and jen at their spend time in bugis... then it hit me. hey! why dun i just use the time to have a good date with God? i knew a part of me wasn't willing as that part of me kept demanding "fun! excitement! why sit down? go out! fun! be siao!" but another part of me kept whispering "you need to sit down... think of God..." so... i decided to combine both parts together and have a surprise birthdae party for Jesus! okai... it sounds duh i know. but I think Jesus and I enjoyed it lots k? I prepared some biscuits and sparkling juice and cheese and just shared to Jesus what I wanna thank Him for. As I was sharing, I realised that the New year resolutions I made in the morning wasn't very well-thought-out. they seemed more like 'i-have-to-make-resolutions-so-this-are-the-resolutions'. and I apologised to Jesus about it. Then I talked to Jesus about the dreams I have for next year... the things I wish to accomplish and somehow I could realli feel Jesus smiling at me. wrote down the things I thanked Jesus for... I realised wow there are so many blessings Jesus have given me this year! abt 200 over and still counting... i will share abt them some other time. or u can spend time with me to find out lah. ;) all in all, I finally felt the detached part of me disappeared... my time with God is really important... even my body will subconsciously tell me liao. amen. thanks God. Happy belated birthdae again Jesus! |
ranted by Jerraine @ 2:35 AM  |
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