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| Monday, November 28, 2005 |
| I dun want to do it. |
WARNING : DO NOT READ IF U ARE FEELING NEGATIVE. THE BELOW ENTRY IS NOT HAPPY.
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I dun wanna do what's right... cos it's so difficult! Ah... It's so difficult... Cant focus on studying... feel hypocritical... that I can let something drag soooo long when I often asked other people to resolve matters fast. Sigh... the sin of constantly underestimating my escapist attitude towards matters that affect me greatly. if I can take 2 years before I can start dealing with my discipline problem properly... dun even need to talk about relationships. Relationship problems are like the bane of me sometimes I feel... It can makes me lose focus on God very very easily as my brain busies myself with all the complexities and intricacies of how I can get myself into such a BIG mess.
And now... if I dun deal with this issue...likely is I aint going to help my walk with God to grow. Argh. I dislike it immensely when it has to do sth with issues that I managed to pack to Timbuctoo in my brain. It's like pulling sth out that been growing roots. deeeeep roots somemore.
Sorry folks... just pray for me to be resolved. I am quite negative now. (Pls dun ask me in public ie church service whether I am alright. You may be greeted with a 'huh?' dazed look or tears that threaten to burst the dam. You are of course welcome to ask in private ie spend time or MSN or some quiet corner.) I just need to be resolved to talk to my small group about it. Thanks goodness my best friends can hold me accountable. |
ranted by Jerraine @ 12:42 AM  |
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