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(Proverbs 31:25-26)
"She is clothed with strength and dignity; She can laugh at the days to come.
She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue." |
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| Thursday, June 30, 2005 |
| A Compressed Perspective of the World |
If we could shrink the earth's population to a village of precisely 100 people, with all the existing human ratios remaining the same, it would look something like the following:
There would be:
57 Asians
21 Europeans
14 from the Western Hemisphere, north and south
8 Africans
52 would be female
48 would be male
70 would be nonwhite
30 would be white
70 would be non-Christian
30 would be Christian
6 people would possess 59% of the entire world's
wealth and all 6 would be from the United States.
80 would live in substandard housing
70 would be unable to read
50 would suffer from malnutrition
1 would be near death; 1 would be near birth
1 (yes, only 1) would have a college education
1 would own a computer
When one considers our world from such a compressed perspective, the need for acceptance, understanding and education becomes glaringly apparent.
If you woke up this morning with more health than illness...
you are more blessed than the million who will not survive this week.
If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the pangs of starvation...you are ahead of 500 million people in the world.
If you can attend a church meeting without fear of harassment, arrest, torture, or death...you are more blessed than three billion people in the world.
If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof overhead and a place to sleep... you are richer than 75% of this world!
If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish someplace ... you are among the top 8% of the worlds wealthy.
If your parents are still alive and still married ...
you are very rare, even in the United States and Canada.
Let's all count our blessings.
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After reading this article, my first reaction to this article was of disbelief... I just can't believe that there will be so little people with computers! only 10 percent? In Singapore, I can safely estimate that there is at least 60 percent of the households here has computers. Even my neighbour next door has a computer! even though he has been proclaimed bankrupt. (dun ask me how he keep it from being auctioned away...) This made me realli start to think about how fortunate I'm really am. Some things that I take for granted is so easy! Like tap water, clean air, electricity at a switch. i start to complain when's there's blackouts, when ppl smoke in front of me, bleh bleh. I forgot all the lessons I learnt from my Thailand trip... as I live in the comforts of my home. Even then, I was getting irritated recently about my computer having problems... Always hanging when we need to do full-screen stuff...
And I also start to realize... how small my view can be. I may think I struggle so much with my finances... but like what the article said, as long i have money in my wallet, i am among the top 8 percent! it also reminds me of the disciples in indonesia, and other countries where there's extreme poverty in some areas. These disciples can even have problems providing 3 meals for themselves or their families; yet often than not, they are described as cheerful people! And that they are people who want to give. I recalled someone shared to me abt this little girl who had 2 necklaces... those shell DIY kind. She gave one to my friend! She is like the widow who gave even when she was in need. Even when she could ask my friend to give her things and it would be totally expected. No.. the little girl gave instead.
It made me think... whether I wanna be a receiver usually but a giver usually... I just wanna receive encouragements and be inspired. I give... but usually from what I already have. I give out of my excess. What a difference in attitude eh? And I guess this attitude really determines how truly joyful a person can be.
That's all I can sae for now... I'm still suffering from flu. Blehz. |
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| Friday, June 24, 2005 |
| Verbal Wounds are as Bad as Physical wounds. |
There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.
The first day, the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.
Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper. The days passed and the boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone.
The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a
scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry the wound is still there. A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one."
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Got this story from one of my dear friends' blog... It reminds me of this saying "Sticks and stones may hurt me but words cannot." It means the opposite to the above story. Saying that words lack the physical presence to hurt (as compared to a knife and stone).
This story makes me think abt myself and abt how i sometimes say things without thinking first... This story gave me a jolt and reminded me again about how I realli continue to work on being disciplined. It also reminds me of the holes in my heart in the past years. I wondered whether I ever recovered from them? or I just am so good that I just build another fence... letting the previous fences fall down due to the number of 'holey' nature of it. I am reminded again of my tendency to just want show ppl the happy and strong side of Victoria. I am very reluctant to show the vulnerable side and when hurt, I rather retreat from the person or just ignore it.
it also makes think abt the number of times I say sorry to someone just because I was too angry to think or I was just too quick to assume. Alot of memories are going thru and not all of them are v happy memories. I am just glad and grateful that I am in the kingdom as God loves me still so much despite of so many wounds I've dealt him... and grateful that cos i am in the kingdom that i can work on changing myself.. yeah...
this entry abit greyish hor?.. yepyep. |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 2:37 PM |
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| Tuesday, June 14, 2005 |
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So pink! haha...
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:32 PM |
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Jen and her favourite feather pen~
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:32 PM |
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Me and the NTU girls
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:32 PM |
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Hey... she looks like a pianist!
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:31 PM |
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Vanessa: Introducing... Joanna... the Miss Most Fake Strong Woman...
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:31 PM |
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See? I am stronger and taller than Vanessa!
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:30 PM |
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I'm Miss Ultrawoman!
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:30 PM |
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Come Peixuan! I reaching lollipop moon liao!
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:30 PM |
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eh.. Talk to my hand.... I dun take publicity pictures...
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:29 PM |
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Princess Peixuan Power!!!!!!!!!
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:28 PM |
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See? I can even touch the lollipop in the sky!
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:28 PM |
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I like lollipops! Joanna, can u bring me along?
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:27 PM |
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Joanna trying to fly to where? To that lollipop land?
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:22 PM |
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Princess Peixuan and her entourage... =P
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:21 PM |
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4 bodyguards around one princess... wow.
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:20 PM |
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Jen and Huixian by the piano...
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:20 PM |
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| Monday, June 13, 2005 |
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okok... Enough photos liao... I know I very pretty... No need to take more. =P
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:12 AM |
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What are you all pointing at?
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:11 AM |
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Eh... another similar pair of smiles...
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:10 AM |
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Peixuan and Vanessa... Eh... Their smiles look similar ah?
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:10 AM |
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Choon Lim: Eh... I got to run after this...
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:09 AM |
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Nice lantern in the background... Looks like Roger's shirt.. lol.
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:08 AM |
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I am as tall as Victoria!
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:08 AM |
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Haha.. I am the spokesperson for 2 products liao! I am rich!
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:04 AM |
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Peixuan's the new spokesperson for Cheesecake!
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:01 AM |
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I wish to be taller... I wish for my FYP to go well... I wish... (juz kiddin~)
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:01 AM |
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Princess Joanna with her bevy of good friends~
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:00 AM |
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Jo: Yay... Yum.. This cake tastes delicious! Yup... Joanna's the new spokesperson for BakerzInn!
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 10:58 AM |
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Can I eat the cake already?
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 10:57 AM |
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I wish I will be prettier than Vanessa... I wish I will... (just kidding ah... =P)
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 10:57 AM |
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Hey! Who's that pretty gal in pink? It's Vanessa!
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 10:56 AM |
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Yummy... This looks delicious...
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 10:55 AM |
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Joanna's Birthday Cake....
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 10:54 AM |
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Another pose for our photogenic pair
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 10:54 AM |
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Another picture of our new spokesperson and Tiger Beer...
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 10:53 AM |
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Peixuan: Aint this pose cute?
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 10:52 AM |
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Guessing time! What flower is this?
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 10:51 AM |
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Joanne: After drinking that tub of Tiger, I just wanna sleep...
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 10:51 AM |
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Here's Sasha taking a shot...
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 10:50 AM |
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Here's the new spokeswoman for Tiger Beer~
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 10:50 AM |
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The cool girls with the killer pool skills~!
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 10:50 AM |
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| Tuesday, June 07, 2005 |
| emotional victoria? |
Just getting abit irritated at myself recently. Been experiencing mood swings now and then the past few days. Think it's hormones talking bah. Or it's just a side of me coming out that I dun like to see. Have been trying to unearth the real victoria for quite some time. must sae that the journey has been pretty eventful - many painful memories, many happy memories, many many many memories. Hurts that I needed to face, insecurities that I have to confess, character flaws that I need to change in, strengths that I need to recognize in myself, the talents that I have. Basically, making myself vulnerable in order to see all this. It's very hard as I've been successfully living under a facade for so long and it's hard to differentiate which is fake and which is real cos it feels almost the same. Being sad is something not easy for me... I can be sad for a while e.g. one day but I find it such a burden to be sad for a prolonged time e.g. more than 3 days. Thus, I will hurry up to heal and ... all this defense mechanisms made me not a very deep person lah. have been trying to change since last year and the workshop was particularly good in awakening the motivation to want to change to full fire instead of a flickering flame that it had turned to before the workshop.
However, the full fire seems to be burning out as well... or rather I'm just tired. feels easily discouraged and affected by things happening around me. Maybe this is the a side of the new victoria. or maybe i am just tired of having to remind myself to be disciplined, having to speak slowly and having to just change something in me that is so inherent. It's like i am not just discovering what makes me tick but also trying to let god mould out a new victoria. think i am trying to do too many things at once. yeah. think i should just concentrate on one aspect that i wanna change in and not trying to change on so many levels. feel that as i am trying to change, i sort of lost sight of god as a husband... keep seeing him as a teacher and i find myself feeling guilty whenever i dun see myself changing fast enough. am i changing for god in order to go heaven? or am i changing because i love god? or what? feel tat my relationship with god is becoming more and more like a teacher and student...
thus i think i gonna take a break and just rebuild my relationship with god... need to love him as a husband again... want to see that god can play many roles in my life and the role that He wants to play the most is to be my hubby! haha. sigh feel good after writing this down in blog and in my journal... writing is really good for me. helps me to focus and not get distracted.
aniwaes, i will post up more photos when i remember... lol. keep forgetting. |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:21 AM |
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