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(Proverbs 31:25-26)
"She is clothed with strength and dignity; She can laugh at the days to come.
She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue." |
| Tunes in My Head |
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| Saturday, March 25, 2006 |
| For one of my angels |
eh my first try drawing a non-flower... non-landscape. hope this is cute. hehe
if u wanna see how i drew it, u can visit this link: http://artpad.art.com/gallery/?iwnzkq9x96s
eh u might be able to see sth or u might not...
aniwaes... thanks Linnie for listening to me yesterdae... just wanna also dedicate this picture to God for being in my life... I seriously think I will be dead if I do not know God by now. bleahz.
Labels: a thousand words has spoketh, in creative mode |
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| Thursday, March 23, 2006 |
| for kurara |
eh my 5th painting... in 3 days? haha. painting flowers are so much easier than animals... no need to be so detailed... :P aniwaes... going to start dedicate more paintings for other ppl... just wanna paint and paint and paint... when i should be study and study and study. blahz
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:30 PM |
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| my favourite flower |
i guess i shall be painting flowers for a while... easier to draw them... compared to animals and stuff...
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 2:49 AM |
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| Spring |
eh.. I like this picture quite a bit... though I should have painted the background sth dark though... hmm I am truly on a painting streak.
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| Wednesday, March 22, 2006 |
| On a painting streak... |
Suddenly I fell in love with painting online... and I decided to do my quiet time via painting... guess the theme of this picture I drew? Quite easy one....
The name of the painting is 'grace'. Cos God sent his sun from Heaven and shed his rays onto the dark Earth... and his son shed tears of blood to redeem us... yet some of his blood can and was not recognized and it turned dark as some people rejected the blood of Christ. yet God who is so holy still wanted to extend his hands to us... He loved us so much that even though He cant stand the sight of us due to his perfection, he made it that our sins are washed away once we get baptized and admit God to work in our lives. yep. Thanks God....
Thank God for bringing me to this earth.
Thank God for just letting me know you so many times.
Thank God for just loving me for who I am.
Thank God for thinking that I am the most beautiful even when I struggle to even admit my self-worth.
Thank God for not giving up on me when I feel like giving up on myself.
Thank God for giving me all the material blessings - a house, education, clothes, money, etc- and letting me live in Singapore (ie. safe, transport easy... ).
Thank God for never letting me bear more than what I can bear.
Thank God for giving me the Word and the chance to read different versions to convict my heart at different times.
Thank God for just wanting to weed out the weeds in my life and character.
Thank God for the friends I have who have shown me love and tolerance and most importantly a heart that sacrifices.
Thank God....
There's too many things for me to thank God and I don't think I shall type them all out. So what do you wanna thank God today?
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 9:40 AM |
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| Grazing |
Joseph gave me the idea...hehe. Marilyn, this picture is for you!
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| Tuesday, March 21, 2006 |
| Gazing |
I just drawn this picture as I was destressing just now... What do you think? Any thoughts on it?
Go to this link to draw similar pictures~ hehe http://artpad.art.com/artpad/painter/
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:34 PM |
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| Wednesday, March 15, 2006 |
| Being quiet. |
Jeremiah 20: 11
But the Lord is with me like a mighty warrior, so my persecutors will stumble and not prevail. They will fail and be thoroughly disgraced; their dishonor will never be forgotten. O Lord Almighty, you who examine the righteous and probe the heart and mind, let me see your vengeance upon them, for to you I have committed my cause.
Jesus Before Pilate (in Matthew 18:28-40)
Then the Jews led Jesus from Caiaphas to the palace of the Roman governor. By now it was early morning, and to avoid ceremonial uncleanness the Jews did not enter the palace; they wanted to be able to eat the Passover. 29So Pilate came out to them and asked, "What charges are you bringing against this man?"
"If he were not a criminal," they replied, "we would not have handed him over to you."
Pilate said, "Take him yourselves and judge him by your own law."
"But we have no right to execute anyone," the Jews objected. 32This happened so that the words Jesus had spoken indicating the kind of death he was going to die would be fulfilled.
Pilate then went back inside the palace, summoned Jesus and asked him, "Are you the king of the Jews?"
"Is that your own idea," Jesus asked, "or did others talk to you about me?"
"Am I a Jew?" Pilate replied. "It was your people and your chief priests who handed you over to me. What is it you have done?"
Jesus said, "My kingdom is not of this world. If it were, my servants would fight to prevent my arrest by the Jews. But now my kingdom is from another place."
You are a king, then!" said Pilate.
Jesus answered, "You are right in saying I am a king. In fact, for this reason I was born, and for this I came into the world, to testify to the truth. Everyone on the side of truth listens to me."
"What is truth?" Pilate asked. With this he went out again to the Jews and said, "I find no basis for a charge against him. 39But it is your custom for me to release to you one prisoner at the time of the Passover. Do you want me to release 'the king of the Jews'?"
They shouted back, "No, not him! Give us Barabbas!" Now Barabbas had taken part in a rebellion.
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I was doing my quiet time on these verses yesterdae... why? because I felt maligned. I felt slandered. I felt unjustly treated. But... this is an unfair world. an unjust world. only God can probe the heart and mind of the righteous. no one else even yet has the technology to realli know what a person is thinking @ the moment. yeh in futuristic films people tend to come up with such devices but such inventions are still in the future. and only God can judge as He is the Most Righteous. And only He can look @ the heart and bring peace to those who are feeling unjust.
Sorry for being so negative in my previous blog entry and thanks to all who expressed their concern and support. I think I seriously needed a time of reflection and rejuvenation with God. To replenish my love for people, to replenish my fighting spirit and to replenish my faith. And so... I did it yesterdae for 2 hrs. Just had that short time with God. Going to schedule a longer one to be with Him soon.
Looking @ how Jesus reacted in his trial... I realised that Jesus was the most vocal here. And even in his most vocal, he does not say much (3 sentences - 1 question and 2 answers). And in his answers He does not even try to convince people that He is innocent. No! He just repeated what he had been teaching the past 3 years. He knew the people had already judged him. He knew that He cannot escape from the cruxification. He knew He has to die for us in order for us to go to Heaven. He did not say all these in the trial. He did not say how much He had sacrificed for us during the trial. He kept quiet. That blew my mind away. In the midst of the market-like atmosphere trial where accusations were thrown at Jesus, Jesus remained quiet. And from what He said, He was steadfast in his beliefs and unwavering in His knowledge of what He was going to do.
And me? Just that someone slandered me... I was so worked up. I was so mad. I was so angry. I was engaged in a cross-fire of words. I shouted into the phone. I screamed my innocence over MSN. okay, I am not a banshee yet but I did felt a big injustice was done to me. And what did that earn me? What did all these behaviours to get my innocence get me? More unsettled emotions and fatigue. Were my friends convinced? No and yes. He still felt that he has to find out more. So that he can know the truth... and what Clara shared to me hit me. Jesus remained quiet throughout because He knew the people wont accept what He said. Why should He try to defend himself to a bunch of people whose hearts were deaf to the truth? It's not that He never tried to talk to them but Satan has muted their senses and deafened their conscience. I am not saying that my friend is being deceived by Satan or what... But if he is already convinced of a certain truth... no matter what I say is unlikely to change his beliefs. Why do I persist in making myself miserable just to prove to him that what he believes is not true? Why let my joy be affected? I should just surrender it to God. yeah.
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| ranted by Jerraine @ 9:38 AM |
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| Monday, March 13, 2006 |
| loss of $50... and two friendships. |
i lost $50 today just because I am was gong gong and went to fold the note small small and then the note drop thru the big big hole in my wallet. duh. sigh. nvm... means no lunch for me for awhile. nvm it's good for my weight.
and... a friendship... this friendship has been with me for over 7 years... and it is just lost. *poof* just like that because he chose to believe someone else but me. Yes, I am not one of his closest friends... but neither is the other who he chose to believe. Or is it because I just dun have a 'trust-me' look? I hate being misunderstood. and especially over a matter that is supposed to be over eons ago. i hate assumptions. it already hurts to lose a friendship. and hurts more to lose two friendships at one go. today is not my day. |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 8:51 PM |
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| Friday, March 10, 2006 |
| Micah 6:8 |
He has showed you, O man, what is good.
And what does the LORD require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God. (NIV)
But he's already made it plain how to live, what to do,
what GOD is looking for in men and women.
It's quite simple: Do what is fair and just to your neighbor,
be compassionate and loyal in your love,
And don't take yourself too seriously--
take God seriously. (The Message)
No, O people, the LORD has already told you what is good, and this is what he requires: to do what is right, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God. (NIV)
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A few hours ago, I finally cried out my stress and all the pent up frustrations, negative feelings inside me. It took Joyce's lesson and for me to pray for me to break. I am quite a stubborn person... plus a secretly cynical streak plus the tendency to be self-reliant plus a strong need to act strong plus... many other sins. Thankfully, the Word of God never fails to really just break my heart, er, break the walls around my heart.
And plus the fact, one of the brother's mother just passed away... I did not show my fear to anyone... I did not even there to admit it to my closest friends. But I did share it abit with God. It's very sad to know someone so close to have passed away... but why do I fear? I fear that my parents and people I love will pass away without knowing God. And I do feel guilt also because I have not been doing enough to help them. No! I have not changed in my character that much... I've been taking so many baby steps forward and almost as many steps backwards. I am supposed to be working in my discipline but so far... my personal health goals are quite in a mess. Finances are also not doing that well... Basically I have not been having that much impact on my family. I am still impatient with my sister and yeah instead of arguing with her everydae, I argue with her every 4 days. (duh so?) I am still arguing with my parents over trivial issues like what time I should sleep, what time I should reach home.
Yeah I do talk to my mother and my relationship with her is improving but my relationship with my father aint going anywhere. sigh... shant continue...
just realise that the things I have been working in my life basically submission to God and disicipline is still very weak. It's especially hard for me to remember to rely on God (and I mean TRULY rely) when I am busy. And I am almost always busy with either tuition la, work la, do housework la, do schoolwork la... oh yeah... I have not been getting my individual date with God lately. Think it's time for me to have a date with God again... i want his presence to be strongly and seriously felt in my life so that I can act justly and love in mercy while being humble...
signing out. |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 1:25 AM |
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| Tuesday, March 07, 2006 |
| Input time... |
yep. please go to the URL below to tell me my weaknesses... sorry ah can only choose 5-6 la. hehe so please just choose the more serious ones... thanks~
http://kevan.org/nohari?name=Jerraine_Bleah |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 10:34 AM |
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| Friday, March 03, 2006 |
| stressed... = ... desserts |
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA
okai yes. i am going crazy with my deadlines. and yes. i have deadlines all queuing up for me to complete! so how am I gonna cope with it? by going on date on 4th March and erm... jus reading and commenting on other ppl's blogs... haha of cos thru much prayers (or rather complaining) to God. I am typing this super fast now... and for those who got hear me type before, i think people around me are getting freaked out by how fast I am typing. lol and I am actually amused by it!! weird victoria.
lemme just state my deadlines (yes... it's DEADlines. not DATElines. sorry i am just particular cos... this spelling error can be annoying to teachers and tutors alike i.e. ME! hehe)
2/3 - Psych Report
3/3 - English Project Draft
5/3 - Another psych report due online (that is already late - i.e. i asked for extension which was granted)
6/3 - English Mid-term
Psych Project 2nd Draft
7/3 - Psych Mid-term Test
8/3 - Another project draft
10/3 - Another project report
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh okai. cyas all. |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 12:57 PM |
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| Wednesday, March 01, 2006 |
| God and I |
I: Why do I like to talk so loudly? Am I deaf or something?
God : It's because you are sometimes trying to divert attention from your insecurities. Rememeber in my eyes, you are Perfect for I made you in the image of me.
I: Why can't I be disciplined?
God : Even if I tell you the answer, you wont be able to understand it. My plans for you are many and one of them is to let you see how you can overcome your weaknesses and sins through me. The other reasons are too complicated for you. Remember to start your day with My Word.
I: Why can't I let go?
God: Because you choose not to. I'm waiting a long time for you to drop your burdens. Jesus wants to carry them for you... His hands have been waiting patiently behind you. Pray to Me.
I: Do I give with a motive?
God: Check your heart. Fix your eyes on Me and only Me. Then your motives will be God-driven. Read 1 Samuel 16:7.
I: I am afraid.
God: Why be so scared? You need only fear Me and nothing else. Read 2 Timothy 2:1-4.
I: I don't dare to love deeply again.
God: Jesus and I loved you even when you were powerless to love Him back. Leave your fears with Me and pour out your love to the people around you. Replenish in Me, the everlasting fountain, and you will never be burnt out again. Read 1 Corinthians 13. |
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