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| Wednesday, August 31, 2005 |
| Simple Trust |
During World War II, a US Marine was separated
from his unit on a Pacific island. The fighting had been
intense, and in the smoke and the crossfire
he had lost touch with his comrades.
Alone in the jungle, he could hear enemy soldiers
coming in his direction. Scrambling for cover, he
found his way up a high ridge to several small caves
in the rock. Quickly he crawled inside one of the
caves. Although safe for the moment, he realized that
once the enemy soldiers looking for him swept up the
ridge, they would quickly search all the caves and he
would be killed.
As he waited, he prayed, "Lord, if it be your will,
please protect me. Whatever your will though,
I love you and trust you. Amen."
After praying, he lay quietly listening to the enemy
begin to draw close. He thought, "Well, I guess the
Lord isn't going to help me out of this one."
Then he saw a spider begin to build a web over the
front of his cave.
As he watched, listening to the enemy searching for
him all the while, the spider layered strand after
strand of web across the opening of the cave.
"Hah," he thought. "What I need is a brick wall and
what the Lord has sent me is a spider web. God does
have a sense of humor."
As the enemy drew closer he watched from the darkness
of his hideout and could see them searching one cave
after another. As they came to his, he got ready to
make his last stand. To his amazement, however, after
glancing in the direction of his cave, they moved on.
Suddenly, he realized that with the spider web over
the entrance, his cave looked as if no one had entered
for quite a while. "Lord, forgive me," prayed the
young man "I had forgotten that in you a spider's web
is stronger than a brick wall.
We all face times of great trouble. When we do, it
is so easy to forget the victories that God would work
in our lives, sometimes in the most surprising
ways. As the great leader, Nehemiah, reminded the
people of Israel when they faced the task of
rebuilding Jerusalem, "In God we will have success!"
[Nehemiah 2:20]
Remember:
Whatever is happening in your life, with
God, a mere spider's web can become a brick wall of
protection. Believe He is with you always. Just
speak His name through Jesus His son, and you will
see His great power and love for you.
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A friend sent me this... It's to remind me to trust in the Lord no matter how bad the odds are... because God will take care of it! Sometimes... the simpler the thing is, the harder it is to accomplish.
Love, Victoria |
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| Tuesday, August 30, 2005 |
| Life is Fragile... |
Well... as I write this... tears are threatening to come out.. My friend... or rather... ZM attempted suicide on Sunday... I only knew of it on Sunday late night... Been visiting him and seeing him there... unconscious with tubes running in and out... just makes me want to tear... I remember a similar scene last year when my sister was knocked down by a bus when she was crossing the zebra crossing near my house. The difference is... ZM's condition is self-inflicted. I cant really tell how I am feeling besides this immensely heavy feelings... I pity his uncle and ZM. ZM's parents have divorced... and I cant find his father. His mother passed away 2 years ago... and his uncle is single. I know it's his psychological condition that drove him to take such drastic actions... but sometimes... ... ...
I really cant imagine how it's going to be if he really dun survives this. Please God... let him be able to know the folly of his actions. He has a bright future ahead of him... please do not let him go... Please let me find peace with whatever may happen in the future. Please let me be able to trust u, father... I am really feeling depressed over this... Please help me to just trust in you simply and wholeheartedly... Please just help me be able to focus on what I need to do and can do. amen.. |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 12:43 AM |
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| Wednesday, August 24, 2005 |
| MapleStory |
Hey peeps! haha on the right that's my character... I just changed my hairstyle and colour-dyed my hair!
Anyways... I've been hooked to MapleStory for a while... At first i was playing mapleglobal... then now I'm playing at maplesea. This present character is at level 43, cleric. Made some new friends over the maplestory but also realised this game can be quite addictive... Was quite addicted for abt 1 month but now I can control better...
Learnt a few things over the internet... my temper online is worse than my offline temper... Hmm... think bcos there's no face to face... there's less constraint. something i need to repent on... i also get annoyed and irritated far easier on maplestory... i cant stand ppl who are rude and delibrately ks (kill steal).
Yeah... aniwaes... just also wanna update my blog... so abit crapping... eh think my brain a bit saturated. will talk more laterz. heeh |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 12:05 AM |
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| Monday, August 15, 2005 |
| *pHoar* |
Heyhey,
wah... these past few daes has me on an emotional rollercoaster... not saying i am feeling alot of ups and downs but just been pretty intense on my schedule. On fridae, we had bibletalk and Vincent shared things that was food for thought. It was realli a refreshing way to share the Bible and making it so applicable to friends and Christians alike. On Saturdae, we had TGIS which was Thank God It's Saturdae... haha.. it was another dae of packed schedule... I was in gym with Wanjun and spent time with her... just eating and bonding... and then rushed to teach tuition and then rushed to go to church with my friend. Wah... Thank you God for giving me an open friend!! He's curious about the Bible and I'm looking forward to just being able to set up bible studies with him~ Or rather, asking the brothers to set up studies with him~ lol.
I realised that over the years I've been relying so much on how to attract ppl to the Word that i neglected to just make them curious abt the Bible. Well, at least I started out from there! I was thought that I must be like this, this and that that in order to make Christianty attractive. Well... isn't the notion of God's love attractive enough?? It was pretty recently that I realli managed to get it into my head... and it realli makes evangelism very natural and easy for me... It was one thing to know that God will work through me and thus I shld just hand my will to God... but it's another thing to realli do it. And I lost that sense of utter trust to God for quite some time... Thanks Father for just bringing me back to you again and again and forcing me to face my weaknesses again and again... You realli dun give up on me.
I also enjoyed the Saturdae evening service immensely though I did feel pretty drained of energy after that... haha... the food ran out so fast!! wah piang. and I dare sae there were disgruntled hungry Christians still walking around. There was also the karaoke... wah piang... so many people waiting... goodness... It was also a great chance for me to just fellowship with Sandy... hehe.
Yesterdae, I rested at home... and went to celebrate birthdae for Christine... wah piang... my camera got lost. but nvm... sighz. well, we went to eat at marche and afrer that went to catch the fireworks.. but arghz... we settled ourselves at the wrong place! But well, after that we went to TCC at Millenia Walk where we sang bdae song and shared for Christine... it was a great time of fellowship. Wah... I was super embarassed. Sianz... ask me whether my favourite brother was at the cafe. Goodness... My brain just shut down as the question was so surprising... and well... heh. that's that. I just met my ex when I went to buy the cake for Christine... I think my brain was still in shock. =P it was quite interesting to hear how other people fend off difficult questions... haha a brother was so good at answering. piang king of deflection. =P. Then another brother was quite serious is naming down his criterion for his future partner... lol. I was abit sceptical cos it was like... asking for perfection. haha... mebbe cos i am studying psychology... and i can imagine how terribly hard it can be for guys and gals to be on the same frequency. same frequency are already hard to get among the same gender... dun even sae the opposite gender. lol. but well it's a common criteria that everyone wants...
Aniwaes, me gotta go... need to do some work before i prepare myself to go out. ciaos.
love, victoria |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 9:32 AM |
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| Monday, August 08, 2005 |
| Oops... |
Heh... oops... forgot to update my blog... again. Aniwaes... this past week has been quite interesting. Alot of ups and downs... hha... I sprained my ankle (bad thing), then i am supposed to be researching on singaporeans' romantic relationships thingie... (good thing?), etc etc...
Had quite a fun time on Tuesdae at Settler's Cafe... Met up with my friend again and just talked and talked. it was good... I felt good being able to really just share with my friend abit abt my life... especially abt being a Christian... This week I felt more mission-focused... I was able to be reach out to quite a few friends and just keeping up with them... Just wanna be a friend to them and able to impact them by my lifestyle. =)
aniwaes... todae spent time with my family and watch Seven Swords with them... abit cmi the movie... the graphics abit too graphic... haha... maybe I am a girl lah... I prefer abit less gory shows. I wanna watch charlie and choco factory leh... hmmm better plan. Aniwaes... tml is NATIONAL DAE!! haha.. happy birthdae SINGAPORE! lol. okies need to sign off now... |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 5:22 PM |
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| Monday, August 01, 2005 |
| Charm or Sincerity? |
It's been sometime since I last updated... Quite a few things happened over the few daes which I din update. I had a great hospitality night where I cooked and did some dishes at Jayne's house, played Taboo with the friends and just talking and chatting with my friends... It was something I definitely want to see more as I am reaching out to my NUS friends. =) Then on Saturdae, I had a date. haha... more cooking again. This time, Chinese cuisine but I more of the helper as the main chef was Zhengfang. It was pretty fun but the prelude to the date had some hiccups. I was dated only on Fridae night. Bleahz. Miscom? Just bad timing? I think all the above bah... Felt abit unimportant and hurt when I was dated so late but well... I can understand the reasons that led to this situation. Haha... cos the farnie thing was i knew abt the date quite some time ago... Just that I wasn't dated. Piangz. Well... that was that. I had a great time at the date; even though there wasn't really any individual fellowship time but it was great to see the brothers doing the cleanup... lol. They din complain one bit which I appreciated. =P After that went down to send Quek off at the airport. I actually felt abit emotional as I understood the potential dangers behind his trip. The destination he's going to isn't exactly the most safe place on Earth. However... I can only just keep praying for him...
Then yesterdae night my sister had a very bad headache which created a minor scare among the family as she went through an accident last year which made us very cautious of any aches and pains she might have; especially in the head. This morning, she recovered liao so it was very much a relief to my mother and me... amen. Thanks God.
Aniwaes, todae I read an article that piqued my curiosity and caused me to think... I was thinking whether women prefers charming men or sincere men... And whether Singaporean males knew how to be charming. It may seem like a 'duh' topic to think abt but it did make me think abt the psychological makeup of Singaporean woman and man. And I aint even talking about Christians. I mean in general, does men know how to be charming? I remember witnessing my friend who was approached by a guy with a super-cmi pickup line. It went sth like this "Did you notice the black out just now?" "You caused the electrical circuit to break!" My friend and I had a lot of good laughs over that. Then I also heard many stories from my friends who still go pubbing and stuff and I just feel that even though there are some guys out there who know a decent pick up line or two... or even the ways to be charming aka opening doors for women, etc. It's not that I advocate guys knowing how to pick up girls in pubs or wherever. It's the lack of charm or gallantry. And I think this is another consequence of the both genders not knowing their role very well in society. Women nowadaes are supposed to be great employees, super moms and loving housewives. Add another filial daughter and daughter-in-law and you will get many women who just are so burnt out! Guys are not sure whether they are supposed to be macho and silent or be this sensitive new age guys. Some guy friends tell me that sometimes they dunno whether they should be gallant or not as it may seem chauvinistic to the girls! Thank goodness I am a Christian. lol.. at least the roles are abit clearer. I am not saying gender equality is bad or what... however I do feel that in the beginning we are already different. I am all for equal job opportunities and others... but I do feel that there is quite a need to have some definitions to help the hapless people... (including me). Dunno whether anyone who reads this might have some ideas??? haha... just do share k?
Me gtg to prepare for work. Cyas.... |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 8:57 AM |
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