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(Proverbs 31:25-26)
"She is clothed with strength and dignity; She can laugh at the days to come.
She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue." |
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| Monday, September 26, 2005 |
| Memories |
-Memories-
A box of momentos
A past filled with laughter and tears.
Each holds a secret key
to unlocking a piece of time.
Words written on yellowed paper
Meanings remain but people changed.
The ring polished many times
yet that bit of tarnish never goes away.
flashes here
relevations there
some incomplete with detached summary
some embellished to its last detail.
things doe not change
unless humans alter them.
these pieces do flit and the colours may change
yet the greatest changes are not in them.
-anonymous |
ranted by Jerraine @ 1:04 AM  |
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| Monday, September 19, 2005 |
| -Stress- |
-Stress-
a thousand bricks
on my heart
a constant drill
in my mind
my head
has become a industial playground.
a fruitless pursuit of Time
running after the wind
may be more rewarding
project deadlines are the present bane of my life.
burden gets heavier as days goes by
accumulates like poison in body
showing its effects in health
trying to do my best
yet keep wanting to do better than best.
praise to the One who can listen
and for truly understanding
the weights on my heart
in Him, I find rest and peace. |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 12:48 AM |
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| Sunday, September 18, 2005 |
| Interesting week... |
I had a pretty interesting week... Everything was going pretty well and I enjoyed a great hangout (mid-autumn themed) on wednesdae~ but then... haha... i realise that it takes so little to jus spoil my mood. i was late for my quiz... and as expected i was pretty flustered when i reached class... so i din do as well as i wld like. and it really got to me for a while. however, it was great that the lesson on fridae and saturdae were so convicting! it was lessons abt the heart and the faith. wahz... once again i am amazed by how God paced his lessons for me. amen.
well... then todae i had a little disagreement with a brother. it was over the mis-interpretation of a sms. well it din had anything to do with directly actually but well i was sorta the middle-person. went with my emotions and realised that the move was pretty much of a mistake. cos i was just looking @ it with one perspective and i rushed my judgement of things and... i shldn't be the one who handled the matter. yepz. well... that was sobering for me. and after that i went for my grandma's birthdae dinner. even though it was my maternal grandma... once again i was reminded how frail she can be and is. she's 78 years old now and after hearing what joyce shared... my grandma realli dun have that many years to go... i realli have to grab chance with her. i realli have to just grab chance with anyone... especially after ZM's passing... Ppl need to see the hope of a better tomorrow... and i am still suffering from regrets...
aniwaes... just wanna share all this just for now. yeps yeps.
going to type a poem later. in the mood for it. hehz |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 12:16 AM |
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| Sunday, September 11, 2005 |
| Healing nicely... |
hi folks!!
glad to announce that i've been able to get betta... after the dengue scare I had on fridae. had a bad fever with fluctuating temperature... goodness... with the number of cases spiking up like no one's business it's scary manz!
aniwaes... I went on date on Saturdae. it was an encouraging date and I got to know a brother betta... it's interesting to get to know someone who i thought i have a vague idea abt and be proven wrong abt my assumptions (that i din knew i had in the first place). almost cldn't go cos i was afraid of a repeat of my sudden fever... God Bless... and I was able to go.
It's also been quite an eventful week... With NUS sistas falling sick one after another! After Vanessa fell sick from flu, Wanjun also suffering from a chronic night cough, me with flu and fever, Sera and her migraines and Marilyn who is now in hospital due to the bacterial infection in her lympathic system (not v sure tho)... goodness... we need to pray v hard for everyone's health... especially for sistas.
this week been quite good for me... i must sae that though i am sick... and also realized i am behind in my school work revision schedule. However... this week been good for my heart... just healing and able to just grieve properly. I have managed to not cry for the past 2 daes and I think it's a step closer for me to healing completely. Or also can be due to my tendency to not want to be so vulnerable. Eh... well. need to check my heart again. =P But at least I am not wasting so much paper.
yep... aniwaes... need to go back to revising... and poem writing. haz.
thanks God... for just being there when I need yea...
Victoria |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:50 PM |
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| Time... |
-~TIME~-
Can be the best healer
With its ability to soften the sharp edges
Yet can be the worst weapon
As it keeps records of all scars and wounds
The strictest movie director
with only one chance of filming
No retakes or rewinding allowed
yet quality is never judged
One of the biggest paradoxes
that people controlled by it
defines
the method of control
Dual roles it may play
A speed demon
A kind mentor
Context is decided by actor
Only Him is the one in true control
He defines it and is not bounded by it
In Him, I have blessed assurance
and strive to continue to trust in His Lot for me |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 10:59 PM |
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| Wednesday, September 07, 2005 |
| -Grief- |
-Grief-
Well hi folks... yep it's me again... *koff* *sniffle*
yeah... i am sick again. sianz. aniwaes...this is what happens when i finally let go of my tears. haha... i hate to cry... I always cant stop... think I just hate to lose control so completely.
however... He really knows that I need it... and finally i can work on grieving properly.. i have been trying to busy myself with everything... hangout lah... go arrange this and that... go study... just not letting msyelf dwell on the topic too much. then on sundae everything like just broke the dam. just wanna express my thanks to those who asked after me... especially Joanna and Vanessa who kep on patting my shoulders. You all helped me to get thru a dark dae. Please keep praying for me... and his uncle...
cant sae that i am totally healed or alright but i can sae that i am on the road of recovery. yeps. need to go sleep soon. am still suffering from flu. drowsy again... |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 12:01 AM |
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| Tuesday, September 06, 2005 |
| Friendships |
~-Friendships-~
Some people get it
some people don't
some people will be asking 'how are you'
some people will be thinking 'what's the matter with you'
some people pry it out from you
some people respect ur peace
everyone's love is different
needs differ greatly too
different personalities
clash
into anarchy
or meld into harmony
girls tend to huddle
guys tend to shun
girls tend to wear too many masks
guys tend to wear the mask for too long
opposite polarities
challenge the possibility of platonic
many scoff at the notion
a few believe
truths are supposed to be told in love
yet a number can be coated in spite
only one friendship has endured the test of time
and in Him I am thankful
for showing me what a friend I can and should be |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:45 PM |
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| Friday, September 02, 2005 |
| Missing.. |
you were like a cherished momento
somewhat forgotten but not really
flashbacks running like a movie
many things we did together
many things we thought together
the laughter and tears
the hopes and fears
we thought of walking forever in time
yet we went separate ways
now it will never happen
the past can't come back
while the present can't go back
and you will never be back...
what is churning in my heart
threatens to overflow
yet i choose to control
for i fear what will follow
what lies ahead
i have no idea
i just have to try to be still
and trust Him who will listen to my appeal |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 2:03 PM |
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