(Proverbs 31:25-26) "She is clothed with strength and dignity; She can laugh at the days to come. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue."
有时候对一个人那么用心 You Shi Hou Dui Yi Ge Ren Na Me Yong Xin 却还是搞不清楚他的逻辑 Que Hai Shi Gao Bu Qing Chu Ta De Luo Ji 谈恋爱谁没演过一点戏 Tan Lian Ai Shui Mei Yan Guo Yi Dian Xi 装没事装忘记装小心翼翼 Zhuang Mei Shi Zhuang Wang Ji Zhuang Xiao Xin Yi Yi 有时候和一个人那么亲密 You Shi Hou He Yi Ge Ren Na Me Qin Mi 却还是忍不住想保护自己 Que Hai Shi Ren Bu Zhu Xiang Bao Hu Zhi Ji 谁恋爱不曾藏一点秘密 Shui Lian Ai Bu Cen Yi Dian Mi Mi 留防备留回忆留心情 Liu Fang Bei Liu Hui Yi Liu Xing Qing 谢谢你总是陪我分享 Xie Xie Ni Zhong Shi Pei Wo Fen Xiang 不能跟情人说的话 Bu Neng Geng Qing Ren Shuo De Hua 我反反复复你也从不笑我 Wo Fa Fa Fu Fu Ni Ye Cong Bu Xiao Wo 老是骂他却又离不开他 Lao Shi Ma Ta Que You Li Bu Kai Ta
谢谢你总是替我收藏 Xie Xie Ni Zhong Shi Ti Wo Shou Cang 不想跟情人说的话 Bu Xiang Geng Qing Ren Shuo De Hua 我胡思乱想你一直握着我手 Wo Hu Shi Lua Xiang Ni Yi Zhi Wo Zhe Wo Shou 让我释放然后慢慢宽广 Rang Wo Shi Rang Hou Man Man Kuan Guang
别人都说我很坚强 Bie Ren Dou Shuo Wo Hen Jian Qiang 只有你劝我别逞强 Zi You Ni Quan Wo Bie Cen Qiang 爱是漂亮却不完美的天堂 Ai Shi Piao Liang Que Bu Wang Mei De Tian Tang 旧了总有需要修补的地方 Jiu Le Zhong You Xu Yao Xiu Bu De Di Fang
Right now, I am typing my quiet time out in Gelare Cafe in Hougang Mall. Gwen is sitting opposite me but she's studying. I'm supposed to be getting the revision literature notes for my students but I am very poorly inspired. ah yes procrastination is one of my deadliest sins. just to warn you all first, this email is going to be very very rambling. It's going to resemble some sort of my thought processes.
Today, I was doing a quiet time based on Job. I've been sick the past 3 days and I felt like 'Job-like' cos my bout of sickness came fierce and without warning. So my question was what do i do on a bad day? I faithfully wrote down all the things I will do, e.g. go pray la... go enjoy good food la... go call my good friends... arrange a hangout... write cards.. etc etc I tried to be very truthful and tried to rank them in the order I will automatically do whenever I just had a bad day.
Ah ha... for the past 1 week or less, I had just joined a new online social network thingie called Facebook. And it has been the first page I go to whenever I have had a bad day at work. Recently, my students have been getting on my nerves easier. It's making me seriously question whether I have the mental and physical stamina to go through as a teacher. Well, there's a way out. I can go apply to be a teacher in a better school. I have actually been doing some asking around and there are a few schools that are rather interested... but well. I wonder what will happen when teachers start to just go to better schools. What happens to the teachers in schools that are terrible? they get burnt out? then what? they quit teaching? somehow as I was having the time to just think over the past 3 days (that's when i am not being zonked out by the medication i'm taking), i came to a conclusion. somewhat. i am going to REALLY learn how to detach from the stresses of my work. how? by relying and trusting on the Lord. like what Job did. He did not always understand why God did this and that or allowed Satan to do this and that... but he almost always just trusted in God and just simply relied on him. He always sank to his knees and prayed. I wonder how long I pray on my knees...
just some thoughts... wanna know more then just ask me lo.
Jeremiah 26:8-15 - where do we aim our faith? Do we aim our faith at Jesus or something else? Let's think about this when we are in shooting practice. During shooting practice, it takes some practice to aim and make sure our scope is aimed at the target before we shoot. Generally, with some practice, it's not too hard to shoot the target. Yet, when we are out on the REAL battlefield, aiming for the target is much harder. There will be many distractions ie, bombings, other machine guns' sounds, your friends getting hurt, etc. You might also be pushed around you might be lying or sitting in an awkward position. How is our aim then? It's the same for our faith. In reality the scope of our faith is daily being batted about, so that we constantly need to take the time to sit down and recalibrate our sights. If God's people and religious leaders can be distracted during Jeremiah's time, let's take Jeremiah's advice and always stay focused on God. Once we lose sight, it's easy to be led astray... :)
Hi... just wanna share this song's lyrics. It's a meaningful song especially how the lyrics are so direct in expressing the thoughts... heh. emo vic? nah. it's just vic remembering the past. :)
I want somebody to share Share the rest of my life Share my innermost thoughts Know my intimate details Someone who'll stand by my side And give me support And in return She'll get my support She will listen to me When I want to speak About the world we live in And life in general Though my views may be wrong They may even be perverted She'll hear me out And won't easily be converted To my way of thinking In fact she'll often disagree But at the end of it all She will understand me Aaaahhhhh....
I want somebody who cares For me passionately With every thought With every breath Someone who'll help me see things In a different light All the things I detest I will almost like I don't want to be tied To anyone's strings I'm carefully trying to steer clear of Those things But when I'm asleep I want somebody Who will put their arms around me And kiss me tenderly Though things like this Make me sick In a case like this I'll get away with it And in a place like this I'll get away with it Aaaahhhhh....
recently, i have been more sick frequently. it's a worrisome sign but well, what can i do much abt besides changing my habits and pray? *shrug* been dreaming a lot in colour lately. sigh. decided to let go of the matter. realized it's not gonna make a difference whether i pursue or not cos... ultimately the friendship is already different. so why seek reassurance? to make it less 'distant'? i'm sorry but i think it went through a pretty irreversible change. i know it's pride speaking... yeah who knows, perhaps 10 years down the road, we can mention this and laugh. but well that's 10 years later... sometimes i wonder... whether am i in love with the idea of being in love? i can be a good analyst for others... but... i hate my analysis of myself. yeah. i hate myself for loving u! dunno who reads this blog nowadaes so... well... hope someone recognizes the song. :P well... guess i am just feeling emo. *shrug* sigh i miss ZM and E. back to exam planning.
Been madly watching a new Korean drama which is a bit similar to Hana Kimi (in the sense that the female lead dresses up as a male but i think this Coffee Prince has better acting... heh). It's called The Coffee Prince Shop. Storyline a bit dated but I like the chemistry between ALL the actors. :)
Enjoy the MV... I realise that having the right song for a show is very important cos the mood must be created correctly man. :)
