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(Proverbs 31:25-26)
"She is clothed with strength and dignity; She can laugh at the days to come.
She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue." |
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| Tuesday, February 28, 2006 |
| History of my Dates |
ehh... so what am I doing so late? or rather early? Cos I am studying... writing report mah. History paper. bleahz. Self-exploration paper. Double bleahz. Aniwaes read Clara's blog and saw her entry on dates... ah. hehe so I am inspired to write an entry on Victoria's History of Dates... :)
My First Date - well, it really 'set' the standard for the other dates. haha. my date was late for 2 hours. and there was 12 couples waiting for him to appear. haha well, at least it made me grateful for the rest of my dates for being NOT 2hrs late. :P
My Most 'Scenic' Date - It's a toss-up between the date I had with Khiok Seng who brought me to OmniTheatre to watch this documentary Mystery of the Nile and the date I went with Meh to Cosy Bay. The soothing breeze coupled with the outstanding city view... yep. :)
My Most "Funny" Date - My dates with Shawn ba cos we always have quite a lot to talk. And it's rare for a brother to out-talk me. Bleahz. I am also known to be very entertaining to my dates and the other couples...cos I share alot of my farnie moments. :P
My Most "Weird-weird" Date - One was a date and one was a reverse. One left church after the date (wah...me so discouraging ah? haha) and one was debating to leave church during the date (he stayed in church... AMEN!). And another date was pretty interesting in the sense that I have not much idea what he was talking about. But I enjoyed these dates in a peculiar way. and no, I wont tell u the brothers' names.
My More Encouraged Dates (not saying the other dates are less encouraging; just wanna highlight the ones that were particularly interesting) - eh... cant realli differentiate cos all was rather the same-encouraging (got date me v happy liao!) was the one with Joke. He really showed an interest to want to know me. Not saying that the other brothers dun but Joke just knew how to ask questions. :) I also had a very encouraging reverse date with Martin. He kept conjuring up surprises (twice) from his bagpack. haha.
My Most Sporty Dates - Kite flying @ Marina Bay and walking from Clarke Quay to Great World City. These dates really made me exercise. haha. The one @ Great World City even made me used some brain juices to do some arts and craft stuff... pretty novel idea though the date was a tad long. heh.
My Favourite Reverse Dates - I think I like the ones held @ Clara's hse!! Two of them. And both of them celebrated my best friends' birthdaes. One was Christine's and one was Clara's. And both I did the cooking and planning. haha food-wise I preferred the more recent one... Cheese and Wine Date!! Though next time I think I betta check with the brothers and sisters whether they like such dates. It's abit of an accquired taste food. :P
Eh... eyes getting sleepy liao. Think I will end off here... if got any more memories I feel like penning down I will edit this post. hehe. :) |
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| Thursday, February 23, 2006 |
| Johari's window |
To continue this quest for my own knowledge to see how u all look @ me, do u mind doing the below? It's just to select 5-6 words that you think best describe me. ;)
http://kevan.org/johari?name=Jerraine |
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| Monday, February 20, 2006 |
| Easy version of Victoria's quiz |
okay!! this is the easy version... haha the previous one seems to have stumped quite a few people. I tried my hardest to make this easy liao... lol. thanks. :)
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| Bleahz. |
| This is a bleahz entry. Cos I am feeling pretty bleahz about myself. Sigh. I dun like emotional Vic. Especially when I have to face a difficult truth about myself. EEEEE okay shall go pray pray. |
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| Saturday, February 18, 2006 |
| Quiz Time!! |
This is the trivia version. haha
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| Thursday, February 16, 2006 |
| 4 facts about me... |
got this from Marilyn's website. I always like this so-called 'lame' stuff... haha.
4 jobs you've had in your life:
1) Tuition Teach'er
2) Telemarketer
3) Personal Assistant
4) Flyer distributor
4 TV shows you love(d) to watch:
1) Buffy and the Vampire Slayer (!!!)
2) 白色巨塔 (yes... it's the doctor show... super nice!!)
3) Cardcaptor Sakura and Ruronin Kenshin (I love and still love good anime shows!)
4) Meteor Garden I and MARS ( I hate Meteor Garden 2 ah... I only like the first two episodes and the last episode for MG2. yuck for the rest.)
4 movies you could watch over and over:
1) Lord of the Rings (I dun mind marathoning it again and again and again...)
2) Chocolat
3) Harry Potter and the Socerer's Stone (this was the best installment lah)
4) 人鱼传说
4 places you've lived in:
1) Ang Mo Kio (til I was one year old)
2) Bukit Batok (til I was 15 years old)
3) Yew Tee (yeah... my current home)
4) Singapore (yep me true blu Sinkaporan lah!)
4 places you've been on vacation to:
1) Malaysia
2) Thailand
3) Indonesia
4) Taiwan (when i was in my mom's tummy)
4 places you want to be in:
1) Belgium
2) Australia
3) Japan (yummy... )
4) Switzerland
4 of your favourite foods:
1) Sashimi (Fresh!!!)
2) Dumplings and dumplings...
3) Sorbets...
4) Chocolate (ah!!)
4 of your favourite beverages:
1) Lime Margarita (haha!!)
2) Erdinger
3) Peach Blossom Green Tea
4) Iced Plain Water
4 websites you visit daily:
1) all my friends' blogs
2) NUS's webpage... IVLE.
3) Google
4) Baidu.com |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 11:31 PM |
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| Wednesday, February 15, 2006 |
| rollercoaster... whee! |
i shall talk abt trivial stuff first, I think I am beginning to like short fringes. On me that is. haha... last time I thought I looked horrible with short fringes. But well, think the hairstylist managed to change my view point.
learnt quite abit from the lessons today... Especially appreciate Raphael's friendship lesson and Karen's lesson on how we shld approach about building friendships with the opposite gender. jen was sharing to me about how raphael's lesson made her think about the friends she has who would humble themselves similarly like what the friends of the paralytic (In mark 2:1) did in order to help the paralytic to get healed... yeah when she shared... it made me think also. and truly, I must thank God that I have such friends in my life. And when I count, I think I can count having more than 4 people who can carry my stretcher. Thank you so much Lord!
well for Karen's lesson... she shared it with a casual-kinda style. made me think alot. i am rather perfectionistic when it comes to me liking anyone. no, i am not saying in order for me to like someone the person must be perfect. DUH. first, no human is perfect. second, only God is perfect. third, i am not perfect so why look for a perfect person to make me insecure? lol what i am saying is that i tend to think in the way of 'either i like the person with 100% or i wont at all'. pretty extreme case hor? well that's one reason why i am on a rollercoaster todae. yep.
need to learn to let go lah. and to put ZM into the storeroom of my heart. yep. okai... shall go back to hit my books... but before that, shall write a poem. haha when i emo, i tend to compose poems... or maybe i shall post my poem tml... heh. |
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| Friday, February 10, 2006 |
| Victoria |
Erm... as a disclaimer or what not, this entry is gonna be pretty upfront and direct. So if you feel that you wun be able to handle knowing so much about Victoria, please do not read the following entry. Yeah I know I am paradoxical. But this is my blog so humour me.
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Yeah... it's funny hor? This blog is supposed to help me know more about myself and also for other people to know more about me but yet I am still cynical whether people can accept the real me. Cos I cant stand myself sometimes.
After reading Marilyn's latest blog entry, I totally agree with her. Writing serves the same purpose for me as like verbal expression. When I talk or write, I find myself able to organise and to analyze what is really ticking behind that big hoo-ha I am feeling. However, writing enables me to place a certain distance from people as I type out how I feel. I am still uncomfortable expressing my negative side in front of other people. Me a fake-o? Yeah maybe. One reason why I can't stand myself sometimes... I can tear like crap over here yet I can still converse with people over MSN with a nonchalant attitude. Such is the anonymoity of emotions over the internet. And yah... sometimes I hope that my blog can help people see that Victoria is not just happy-go-lucky... though it's hard for me to say that when u ask me in person. lol.
Have been having migraines for the past 4 days. It's very annoying and very physically draining cos I have to keep my brain functioning despite the pain I am feeling. Also have to keep reminding myself to be outward focused and not focus on my migraine... It's a coping mechanism for me. Yesterday, I went to see my specialist as I also had ran out of my migraine medication (side note: they are so EX!!!). Then my doctor dropped the bomb. The CT bomb. Basically, if my migraines continues, I need to go for a full checkup again (which costs alot of $$!!) and if they can't find anything wrong with me... I have to go for CT scan.... argh. I hate medical bills. They eat my money so fast. Sigh and I am supposed to be working on improving my health this year as part of my New Year resolution. So why my migraines are back again? Am I feeling going through a period of emotional upheaval again? Eh... dun think so. Am I going through a period of stress again? Eh... think so. Why? Because this is my last semester. Eh? Thought I am going to continue? Nope. I have decided to graduate with BA. So this decision stresses me out? Eh... not really indirectly maybe because this is my last semester to pull up my grades and to shine as a disciple on campus. So how come so stressed? Because I am taking 5 modules and 4 of them are 4000-level honours modules which require alot of thinking, reading and analyzing. And all these can only be done with discipline and self-control. And what is my top character sin? Ill-discipline!! ... This can continue and continue and continue. But basically I find myself worrying alot again. Me a typical worrywart. So auntyish right?
And yeah... as Valentine's Day draws near, I think of someone again. And the decision for me to throw away the ring still pulls at my heartstrings. Because it was given on my Valentine's Day. Bleahz. Argh... can't stand the emotion rollercoaster I am on. Suddenly feeling so utterly despaired. And the next moment, excited. Next moment, despondent. Next moment, feeling the adrenaline rush. AHHHHHHH. I am feeling so ______________ please fill in the blanks for me. |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 12:23 PM |
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| Thursday, February 09, 2006 |
| What is the meaning of Valentine's Day to you? |
When the girl was 12 years old, the meaning of Valentine's Day was... seeing some girls in my class getting excited over the flowers or chocolates they received... and seeing some boys in my class being mercilessly teased by other boys. She felt envious and also had very low self-esteem for herself...
When she was 14 years old, she received my first Valentine's Day present from ZM. It was a stalk of white lily. They had pizza at his house and he took her to a park where he sang her favourite song then... She did felt very touched and very cherished. at that time, she even thought that he was the guy I was going to be with for a long time. well it proves how naive her thinking was then.
When she was 16 years old, she celebrated Valentine's Day with her friends in style. They had a huge barbeque party at her friend's house and they just enjoyed each other's company. They also exchanged presents for that day was declared as Friendship Day. It was an occasion that she would remember for quite some time... though the friendships had changed over the years, be it diluted or whatsoever, the bonds are still there...
When she was 18 years old and all the wiser, she also had a romantic Valentine's Day celebration. this time, she had a huge bouquet of white lilies and ate dinner at a most expensive-looking restaurant. after that, E brought her to this jazz pub for after-dinner drinks and to listen to the much-lauded jazz singer. It was not the most unforgettable date for her jaded heart but the effort put in was still much appreciated...
When she was 20 years old, she no longer celebrates her Valentine's day the usual way . Instead, she spent it with friends...close friends who shared similar beliefs. It was unforgettable as the brothers who organised it were truly doing it out of a heart to appreciate the sisters and not to impress them or expecting anything in return... such a heart moved her and inspired her to really think about the meaning of valentine's day ever since...
now she is 23 years old... to her Valentine's Day is not just a day where one spends with her loved one/s; but also a day where one can remember the love of Him. He is the perfect husband and boyfriend... and with such an outpouring of love, she decides to just be able to share that joy with others...
Happy Valentine's Day to all... :) |
| ranted by Jerraine @ 12:36 AM |
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| Monday, February 06, 2006 |
| cynicism |
how it eats at my soul
this creature
it can be a chameleon
and comes in all colours
it chews at my faith
and snacks on my love
a black hole beckons
if not for God's love
His Word is ever there
helping to banish the unholy thoughts
yet it returns
when my walk falters
prayers and confessions
can be like cough syrup
but a repented heart
is to be free of such diseases of the heart |
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| Saturday, February 04, 2006 |
| phone bill |
i need to just cut down on my sms. so... i'll stop organising events... and stop my mass sms.
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yeah right as if that will ever happen... sigh... |
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| More more blog things |
resorting to a break as I am reading my 'addicted' books... ahhh... help nvm. aniwaes.
| Your IQ Is 120 | 
Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average
Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional
Your General Knowledge is Exceptional |
goodness... haha logical intelligence below average!! haha so true... i am extremely illogical person. lol! haha but my maths... wah... exceptional sia. haha that is ILLOGICAL!
| You Are a Frappacino | 
At your best, you are: fun loving, sweet, and modern
At your worst, you are: childish and over indulgent
You drink coffee when: you're craving something sweet
Your caffeine addiction level: low |
haha.. childish and indulgent. lol...
| All American Kid | 
Popular but not plastic. Athletic but not a jock. Smart but not a brain.
You were well rounded and well liked in high school. |
hmmm something to be reevaluated. lol
| You Are Apple Pie | 
You're the perfect combo of comforting and traditional
Those who like you crave security |
apple pie... yummy.
| Your World View |
You are a fairly broadminded romantic and reasonably content.
You value kindness and try to live by your ideals.
You have strong need for security, which may be either emotional or material.
You respect truth and are flexible.
You like people, and they can readily make friends with you.
You are not very adventurous, but this does not bother you. |
lol... me not v adventurous.. eh.. when it concerns immense darkness and ghosts... yeah.
| Your Mood Ring is Magenta | 
Weird
Creative
Insipired
Thriving |
err... hmmm interesting test...?
| Your Five Factor Personality Profile | 
Extroversion:
You have high extroversion.
You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"
Conscientiousness:
You have low conscientiousness.
Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously.
Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions.
Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done.
Agreeableness:
You have medium agreeableness.
You're generally a friendly and trusting person.
But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.
You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.
Neuroticism:
You have low neuroticism.
You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.
Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.
Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.
Openness to experience:
Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything. |
| You Are a Bright Star Soul | 
Like a shining star, you have no trouble being the center of attention
In fact, you often feel a bit hurt when all eyes aren't on you
You need to be number one in everything, no matter how trivial
And it's this ego that both hurts your confidence and helps you acheive
You're dramatic and a powerhouse of pure energy
You posess a divine quality or uniqueness that's hard to define
A natural performer, it's likely you'll become famous in some circles.
Just learn not to take everyone's reaction to you so personally!
Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul and Prophet Soul |
haha... pretty true... in some aspects... |
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| Friday, February 03, 2006 |
| More blog quizzes... |
| You Are a Margarita | 
You aren't just the life of the party, you are the party!
You mix a good drink, bust out some great music, and know how to get down. |
haha... this is rather true. my favourite cocktail is magaritas! :)
| What Your Face Says | 
At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced.
Overall, your true self is passionate and physical.
With friends, you seem thoughtful and interested in ideas.
In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.
In stressful situation, you seem like you're oblivious to the stress. |
eh... weird.. haha
| You Are 40% Weird | 
Normal enough to know that you're weird...
But too damn weird to do anything about it! |
this is like so quite true. lol.
| You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish |
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be. |
so... politically correct-sounding!! bleahz
| You Passed 8th Grade Science | 
Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct! |
haha lucky ah... otherwise how i teach science??
| Your Inner Child Is Happy | 
You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing.
You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes.
And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad.
You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to. |
i am a happy child... lalalala
| The Movie Of Your Life Is A Cult Classic | 
Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy - your life appeals to a select few.
But if someone's obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky.
Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski |
hmm... only heard of show girls... the rest? nah. |
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| Thursday, February 02, 2006 |
| some things to read... haha |
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| Wednesday, February 01, 2006 |
| Knowledge is Responsibility |
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay that was my belated CNY greeting to everyone... now back to my title.
what do i mean by knowledge is responsibility? well, i got some input abt my knowledge-thirst nature from someone recently and once again i am reminded that i can so insensitive and selfish in my bid to know more and more... This often happens when I seek to know more about matters that do not concern me and do not benefit me in any way by me knowing more. This time though, I got a new perspective... or rather something realli got into my brain (i tend to need quite a few reminders before it realli gets into my head). I always am convinced that knowledge is never going to be a sin but... what I do with the knowledge... ah... that is something tricky and dangerous. If I choose to keep it within myself and do nothing to help in spite of knowing so much, it can and most probably will become gossip fodder one day. And that will become sins of slander, malice and folly...
However, if I am sure that knowing more is going to help me to be able to help someone better... and that I am definitely going to take action... knowledge is no longer a danger spot... it becomes something where I can be godly in. Thus that's why I say knowledge is responsibility... :)
What are your views on this? |
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